Remember a while back when I had a rant about how
I found out I owed the government money from an old tax file of mine?
Well I picked up my mail today…
And I see an envelope from the US Treasury Department.
And from the dimensions…
I’m like…
“WTF… is that a check?”
I was like, okay… what did they screw up on now?
Well just so I didn’t have my hopes up…
I decided to open the envelope up with my hands full of groceries…
Instead of waiting for the comedic irony to build up.
Open the envelope and I find out…
Yes…
I am getting money back….
Wait for it…
Wait for it…
I’m getting…

$1.08 back.

It’s like winning the lottery.
I was like.. wow.
This…
This is the luckiest day of my life.

I can finally get that bag of Fritos I’ve had my eye on for a while now…
And not just the regular kind…
We’re taking the “Scoops” variety baby…
Like the big time…
No more settling for “Dipsy Doodles” anymore.
We’re moving up in the world.
Yes sirry….
We’re moving up in this world.

To all those people that will more than likely see me this weekend…
Particularly this Sunday at my “job”…
I am apologizing ahead of time…

Yes…

I know it’s a week in advance…
But I’m just getting you prepared.

I will not be in the best of moods
although the atmosphere is more than likely gonna be “festive”.

I will have to, more than likely, sleep at my job from the night before…
Get, at most, like 5 hours of sleep…
Then be up…
Hopefully having somebody I know who might live near by…
Allow me to take a shower at their place.
If not…
I will be not be happy AND a mess…
And then…
Work, at least, 16-17 hours straight.

So again…
I would like to apologize…
But….
You have been warned.

I may be a bitch to talk to that day…
Or I may be completely incoherent…
Or maybe a little of both.

But again…
You have been warned.

Midnight Juggernauts - Dystopia
Recently got this CD and am in love.
Super mix of Indie Pop, Electronic and Electropop.
And very very Bowiesque at times.
Here’s the video to their single “Into The Galaxy”
But the entire album is gorgeous.
Enjoy.

Was waiting online at Popeye’s…
(Yes Popeye’s… and what? If there was KFC’s near by I’d rather go there…
But the nearest one is blocks away and it’s redunculously hot outside.)

After placing my order…
An older couple came up to the window and started their order…
She and he were wearing tank tops and shorts…
As she was up at the window…
He came up behind her and put his hands up to her back…
It looked like he was pressing her forward into the window.
Had no idea what he was doing…
Until I turned around fully to them and saw what he was doing.

He was trying to pop a blackhead on her back.
While waiting on line in Popeye’s.
My stomach was hurting already.
Cause I haven’t eaten all day.
But seeing him trying to squeeze the nasty stuff out of her back just…
Just pushed me over the edge.

I was like…
Give me my spicy nuggets and get me the hell out of here.

But as it is said….
“Don’t stop believing…”

While in the midst of reading the New York Times…
(Arts section of course…)
I am slammed in the face by the cover photo…
Of a Pinoy rocking out onstage with gratuitous drum kit flashing in the background.

I’m like…
“Who in the name of all that’s Imelda is that?”

Well guess what…
Journey…
Yes Journey…
has a new CD out…
Sans lead singer Steve Perry.
And the man who has taken his place?
Arnel Pineda.
(Such a distinct Pinoy last name… no really.)
A 40 year old Filipino who is…
Gasp…
Actually from the Philippines.
Dicovered on…
Gasp…
YouTube.

Suposedly Mr. Pineda strongly sounds like Steve Perry…
I, of course will have to peruse over the album…
(Thank you iTunes track preview…)
To judge for myself.

Journey will also be touring this summer…
In support of the new album…
“Revelation”
Which also includes a 2nd CD of re-recorded tracks from their catalogue…
And DVD.
(Of course there’s a DVD.)

Supporting bands for the tour…
Cheap trick and Heart.

Cheap trick AND Heart?
Don’t get me wrong…
I love me some Cheap Trick…
But Heart as a SUPPORTING band?
Oh my dear Ladies Wilson…
You are so much better than this…
Really…
Seriously…
Please don’t shatter “These Dreams” I have.
I haven’t stopped believing in you.
Journey on the other hand…
Well…
We’ll see.

Lets jump the shark…
Which is basically jumping the shark anyways…

If in a rush…
And a companion asks…
“What’s the hurry?”
The appropriate answer is…

“We only have 4 minutes to save the world.”

Hail Madge full of grace…
The world is with ye…
Blessed art thou amongst women…
And blessed are the fruit of your womb…
For they will be loaded…
And featured on TMZ.

Economic stimulus plan… my ass.
With everything going on in my life.
This situation is just laughable.

I’m in a slightly precarious finacial point of my life.
I’m not going into details…
But still…

So, part of me…
In the back part of my mind.
Goes…
“Well that check from the IRS is gonna help a bit.”

Well recently…
I received a notice basically saying…
Keep an eye out for the check…
Please contact us if it doesn’t come at a certain point…
Yada yada.

Well yesterday I receive an envelope from the IRS.
I go…
Woot.
And head up to my apartment.

I sit down at my desk.
Settle in…
Open up the envelope…
And… BAM.

No check.
Just…
JUST a notice from the IRS saying…
I missed something from my 2006 tax return…
And that I OWE THEM MONEY!

You have got to be kidding me.
I mean…
Really?
Seriously?

If I ever sighed as hard as I did that day…
I don’t know when.

But now looking back.
I just have to laugh.

Money the government has yet to send to me.
Is being sent right back to the government.
With interest.

Irony.
Yup.
In spades… lol.

I recently went to a benefit event for
The Marijuana Policy Project
at the Highline Ballroom in Chelsea.
The organization is one of the key groups
dealing with the policies and politics of legalizing medicinal marijuana
and featured key speakers such as
John Stossel, Michelle Philips (of Mama and Papas fame),
Kurt Loder, and Montell Williams.
The speakers were very profound…
Especially Montell concerning his own medical battles
and upfront usage of marijuana.
(John Stossel on the other hand… was a bit of a mess.
Not only verbally, but dude… use a comb.)
Well, Michelle Phillips ended her presentation
with an introduction of the night’s musical guests…

Nicole Atkins and The Sea.

I had never heard of them before.
But as they continued on with their set…
I had to go up to my friend and was like,

“They are freakin’ good! Like real good.”

Ms. Atkins has an astounding, versatile voice giving you a brilliant blend
of pop rock, surfer tracks, folk pop,
and even channeling the likes of Roy Orbison (on the track “The Way It Is”)
and Gwen Stefanie (on the track “Love Surreal”)
and has the looks very reminiscent of
Susanna Hoffs (of the Bangles) on stage.

I immediately downloaded her album “Neptune City”
(released by Columbia Records) from iTunes
and have been listening to it all this time.

Great summer album.

Here’s a clip of them performing on David Letterman last year
doing “The Way It Is”. Spectacular.
Enjoy.

Just cause…

I know it’s been a while.
A month even.

Since this is the closest thing to a diary I have…
I guess the time is due.

Open letter to the guy I have been dating for the past 2 months.

I almost loved you.
I told you I did.
Cause it was the right thing to say at the time.
But I held back a little bit.
Cause there is always that slight chance that things go awry.

And this is that time.

I was ready.
Like I had said.
These past months with you helped me realize I was ready to settle down.
To finally be with someone for the rest of my life.
And I thank you for that.

And unfortunately…
It’s not you.

I know you aren’t ready…

These past 2 years must have really messed you up.

You being so beat up inside..
So tired…
So emotionally drained…
That you weren’t ready to commit to something.

I’m sorry that person I was willing to settle down with wasn’t you.

I’ve never jelled with someone as much as you.
We’ve finished each other’s thoughts…
We had the same interests…
We were on the same level.

But you weren’t ready.

I would never give up these past 2 months with you.
These were some of the happiest times I’ve had with someone…
In a long, long time.

But you weren’t ready…

I was willing to work things out…
To wait for you…

But you weren’t ready…

You fucked this up…
You really did.
When you tell you’re friends what had happened…
They’re gonna tell you how much you fucked this up…

This could have been one of the best things that could have happened to you..
I was willing to be there for you…
Through thick and through thin…

But you couldn’t do it.

I’m sorry to be so bold, but….

You weren’t ready….

And you missed out.

You really did.

Part of me hopes you realize what you missed out on.
Cause I was willing to go to the line for you…

I really was.

I’m sorry, you weren’t ready.
And I’m gonna miss you.

I might contact you.
Like you said you were willing to do.

But I have a feeling…
I’ll be waiting for you to contact me.

It’s where you are.
If you come to realize what you missed….
Then maybe.
But I know…

I know deep in my heart…
I gave it my all.
I gave up so much of me that it hurts.

And yes…
It hurts.

But I can’t be the one to reach out.
I can’t.

I know…
Deep in my soul this could have been amazing.

I was willing to wait.
To be patient.
To help you through this thing.

But you weren’t ready.

I’m gonna miss you.
I almost loved you.
I hope nothing but happiness…
And peace to whatever that is troubling inside of you…

Cause from the get go…
I wanted nothing but to make sure that you were happy.

Goodbye.
Take care.
And if we cross again.
I hope you see what could have been.

Cause it could have been great…
You and me.

May you find what you seek.

And may I find peace of mind.
Peace of heart.
And a love I deserve.

I tried finding the…
“What do you make of this?”
“Oh… you can make a hat… a brooch… a pterodactyl.”
scene… but I couldn’t find it.

But his scene was good enough for me.
Oh…
And don’t call me Shirley.